好久好久

Since a long time ago, I din't update my blog.Today suddenly think that some words ,some idea,some expression may not be release in the reality world,only through virtual world can make myself release what my mind thinking.

After entering university , life seem to be so busy .None of the day , I am free, I act as a good girlfriend ,as a good daughter ,as a good students , as a good employee..At the end , all screw up~

None of the role , I able to done perfectly.

Today , I was down , I thinking just want to my phone line and just let between me and my boyfriend relationship lead to a full stop. But I can't do it, not because I not dare .All about just because I still can't let go this relationship.

Along the journey head on DIGI center , suddenly a music pop out from my radio , "{我依然爱你）" by Lee Hom.

我依然爱你，就是我唯一的退路，我依然珍惜时时咳咳的幸福。

我依然爱你，或许是命中的注定，多年之后都无人能代替~那些回忆都无法忘记。

After I listen this, no matter how my boyfriend scream me in the phone ,no matter how my boyfriend don't understand me and just scold me why I make him screw up~...Because I love him , I thaught as nothing happened. Use a new way to communicate with him, but at behind,I cried loudly,how I hope he will understand me but the realistic told me the answer is NO.~

Today with my best friend (DAN) hang out ,maybe I don;t want hide myself in house get upset again.Thanks to him , I really happy while having racing car with him , thanks to him he tried to make me happy,thanks to him just use 20min from GOPENG come to Ipoh , I had late for 1hour but he din't even mad of me.~Is my pleasure to have such friend....

Thanks alot DAN , I maybe not dare to tell you what I sad about , but thanks,you forever will not ask me why I unhappy ,you just b my side and cheer me up.Really thanks today.~cause of me You take sick leave,even you are sick you still be with me and eat with me beef steak~I don;t know what I can gave back to you DAN, I only can said "THANKS "...

Presentation!

Buisness plan presentation!

So so nervous that moment, when I present!My hand nonestop shaking,

but I still managed to finish all.God bless me.

My friend told me when I wear formal,I seem to be slim.But there is no

doubt about this statement,because I din't ever havinG proper food(full of vitamin)

in my lunch or dinner.Everyday just vegetables...

Luckily,I pass it..Thanks to all my group members.For giving cooperation .

人

原来人有时真的很矛盾。
这几天，我自己做了很笨的东西。。写了好多好多封的信息，
自己没有勇气去寄出去，
只是每天定时写了把它收进DRAFT。
不知道自己为什么会这样，也可能别人所说的爱面子吧。或者觉得之间会明白吧。。
考验是有的，只是经不经的起考验是另一回事。。可能之间在一起太久了，也是时候有点考验。。

习惯了每天写信息放进DRAFT。没打算寄出去，只是觉得这样，更有实在感。
昨晚自己还笨笨的，抱着枕头。。幻想。还会有点幸福的感觉。。
（我觉得我真的发烧到烧坏头脑了）。。

我爱上了这个习惯。没打算会寄，也没打算收到回复。。
只是想自己默默地写下去。。这样的每一天，虽然人不在，也觉得是幸福的。

Lalala

Lalala..

Just arrived Malacca,I declared I fall sick again.Freezing,sore throat sign,sneezing.!

Chinese New Year gone coming soon,why is me again?Haixx....=(

1.11am.I had slept for 6 hr on the bed,I felt like having whole body ache plus freezing.

**Don't wana think too much.Switch off my brain please at this moment.

feeling---

Feeling





At this moment.I having feeling uncomfortable,want to run away.I scared.When I touched on my own breast.I taught back the moment that guy touched me.Everything was so yak..
I till now can't even forget.Hopping can forget.I very scared.
Alone typing in front the computer.I holding my tears cause my mum beside me.
I can't be like that in front her.I can't let my family knew.But the feeling inside my heart was complicated.Everything seem like I had forgotten.But when sometime I view on the health pages about breast .I will automatically recall back everything.I doesn't hate him just I want to avoid from him.

First time,I having this kind of feeling.As same like let people sex abuse.Even the words he talked to me.Is always the same :"can i touched you? "..I didn't ever replied that guy anymore.He called me up or even sms me.I didn't thought this guy as my friend again.

But the feeling inside my heart.Scared...complicated....when I alone at night I recall back the incident.I hide inside the bed.How I hope that I now in my home.Not because there got my family.Is because I can hug my bear tightly while crying.I always use to thought the world are just like a disneyland.Everybody are not evil as others thought.

I am wrong.Nobody will understand my feeling at this moment.Feeling everything beyond my control (feeling),feeling like I am alone to face it.

***I just want to be a child.A child who will not growing up forever.Everyday being protect by others..